[analog-ing]
an ode to healing, living & creating off-line
my hands itch to touch paper to feel glue stuck to the tips of my fingers my injured brain has sent the signal to all of my extremities that rough, sticky, smooth touch is what it needs to heal press ink to paper instead of fingers to keys eyes on real paper rather than screens. the anxiety swirling in my chest at the gaps in thought or focus quiets to a simmering ease when I cut dismember, then paste back together the pages of an old book magazine images. this is my reprieve from the horrors of the world confusion of my mind weariness of my heart and the fuel to be here take root action create art connection synthesize all that feels un-accomplish-able. so. I cut--to dig the hole, then paste--plant the seeds of myself sleep walk with a friend keep watering my soul while my mind slowly heals and blooms again and again and again.
hi, hi, hello sweet friends!
keeping things short and sweet. it’s about all my brain can handle looking at a screen and all my mind can handle stringing letters, to words into sentences together to make a thought complete. I’m good. Truly, truly am. parts of me are banged up but it all feels as if it’s for the best (most of the time). when the overwhelm and dread of not being able to keep track of things, or the doing of basic tasks leave me more frustrated then usual or the fear of ‘falling behind or out of routine’ on my writing subsides I am: full up on analog creations, writing in my journal, face to face time with beloved friends, spell casting, incense burning, day dreaming, business scheming, art sharing. more and more I believe these things coupled with action, community care, are the resistance to these truly diabolical times. I’ve missed writing-a lot and though my therapist reminded me yesterday that I’m recovering and really need to rest and chill tf out, I’m hoping I can jump back into writing my WIP novel v soon. (I am who I am Addy :) I’m doing my best I promise!!!)
some updates: we picked apples, peppers, eggplants and wildflowers this weekend and never have I ever wanted a garden and cottage in the woods more; I’ve got some exciting new creations to share with you very soon; I’m feeling very liberated in sharing about my queerness and it makes me really f*cking happy; I miss my SoulCycle riders and community a lot but taking teaching off of my plate has been a welcome relief; I love coaching and I’m really good at it; really grateful to be in this body and this lifetime and consciousness with you.
ONE MORE THING! I am super thrilled to share that my collage artwork is being featured in this month’s issue of Kayli ‘s analog newspaper The Intentional Muse!! This is the first time my work has ever been accepted and ‘exhibited’ anywhere and I can’t think of a better place to be featured. I’ve been SUCH a fan of this print since I came across it and am so excited to get to share this with you! Use code: COLLAGEMUSE to get your October issue FREE and support a small publication doing big beautiful work. YAY!
as we move into a new season (this witch’s favorite) I wish you and yours warmth, ease, protection, connection and abundance. Here’s to doing things on a different cadence and not pushing through. Manifesting crisp air and clear channels to our muses. these are just some of the spells I cast in my very first Mabon ritual last night-twas v special. <3
sending you big love, always,
xx
A
P.S. Happy Bi visibility DAY!!!!!